Moved

As I sat here reading various blogs and articles, I found myself moved...literally and figuratively moved by something I read. (and really I meant literally.. I had to get up to check on the baby since she was showing me her lung capacity in the middle of my reading) As a clueless new Mom, theses words spoke to me. I felt them reaching through the screen, knocking on my head and saying "Hey lady! pay attention..this is good stuff for you to think about."


My baby, my precious angel, the apple of my eye is a wonderful baby...really she is. Only one tiny detail makes me pull my hair our and cry my eyes out trying to solve the mystery.


Why doesn't my 3.5 month old take a nap?


Everything I read, and goodness knows I did tons of that during pregnancy, indicates that my child at this age should be napping at least twice for a good chunk of time during the day. However our little peanut refuses to nap. She sleeps for 15 minutes maybe 3 or 4 times a day and wakes up smiling at me, while I'm half showered and still trying to paint the other 7 toes! I have this thing where I like my toes painted all year round..makes me feel girly!


Then I stumbled across these words....


Maybe my problem is how tightly I’m holding on to the idea of the way things should be. Maybe it’s time to ask for a different sort of help. Instead of asking God for an escape, maybe I need to ask that He will widen my capacity. Help me to be gracious...

- From Five Kids Is A Lot of Kids, written by A Wide Mercy


How could I have read them randomly on the day that I needed to hear them the most? God's Grace? Happenstance? I have NO idea but I know I'm better because of it.


Tonight as I lay my head down to hopefully get a good four hour stretch of sleep, as I dream about my baby in the other room and ask God to keep her safe, I'm going to ask Him to help me learn to be gracious and to thank Him every day for the blessing that is my Faith.