Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Random ramblings

I would apologize and tell you that I'm a slacker but the truth is I'm not. Life just got a little crazy, as it does when you have an infant + a dog + a husband working 60 + hours a week.

As I'm writing this, my Nutella brownies are baking in the oven and a pot of "fluorescent orange" Kraft Mac N' Cheese is cooked on the stove waiting for me.  Stress brings out the best of my cooking skills.  Thankfully, Sunday and Monday we had two big homecooked yummy meals that I made so I don't feel bad at all.

Baby girl is growing and changing before my eyes.  Today she seemed like a mini adult, chattering on to me about nothing and smiling great big smiles when I was singing to her.  Everyone said that she would grow up quickly but I don't think I understood it until I had her.

I've been plagued by feelings of inadequacy lately.  I always feel like I should be more or do more or contribute more.  The reality is that I'm working along at what feels like 100% right now and I'm digging deep to give more to my family each day.  However when I surf Pinterest or read other blogs, I often leave feeling like I need to do more.  My kitchen could be more organized and my laundry could be folded AND put away every day.

Even putting aside the online world and it's expectations, I had a run-in with a family member who is pressuring me to return to work.  There's more to the story and I do need to vent it out but I need to be a in a better place in order to speak about it in a grown-up fashion.

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